Seconds, hours so many days~

Ahh~ everybody's getting emo now, including me. Wait, no, I should not use the word emo, I should say I'm a little troubled again, but, luckily I still can pull myself togehter and continue what I must do right now (study!). Although everytime I feel weird, awkward, feel like something is lost. I don't feel comfortable while standing there. Anyway, just pray for me? hehe~

*Girls, don't be so sad ok? I'm still at Ipoh and sure will come back to see u all. I'll miss you too, especially 3 of you!(shh...) And for some of you, please don't cry again, you want to make me cry also ar? Its not good to make DUL cry, haha. Good luck to all of you~

Amelia Ling

Wow, today was really a big surprise. To be honest, I had a wonderful both farewells in this week, really thank you very much to all my lovely juniors, they really did a great job, although it wasn't a perfect one, but it was much better then what I've expected earlier, clearly I can see that everyone of them put in a lot of effort to make it successful and also make us happy. *touched* At first I thought there's no more farewell for us, my long waited farewell, but luckily God heard us! hee~ thank You..

What can I say, it all started with crazy scream, shocking presentations with some blur cases, and of course, the silly crazy presentations. The funniest presentation is the form 3 short sketch (happy anot? I like your sketch the most), jo ee said to phui joan 经典的一句 "你好肥！(you're so fat!)", so evil~ poor phui joan, haha. On the other hand, I started to have stomach pain and wanted to vomit, but luckily I can tahan the whole day, hehe, thanks to mak teen yian for the warm water.

When the fun time was about to end, chow and I had a little surprise. Before that we were dancing on the stage then back down the hall, that time I was looking for vivien but unfortunately can't find her, then look for anjoe, then bernice, but I can't find them! I was VERY curious where did 3 of them went and not asking me along, ish! After that everyone sit down for the next show, curtain open and we saw 3 of them up there! I thought they want to sing 'No Boundaries', their favourite song, hahaha! but.. actually its not, they are introducing both of us, and appreciating us! hehehe.. No, actually is quite fish la, I still remember ma yi said "我说UL你说YO!", "我说DUL你说YO!", "UL&DUL yeng不yeng?", "UL&DUL美不美?", and one more, "我要听那个form叫最大声", Dei~ don't ever do that again ok? It perfectly ok for shireen chow but what if nobody scream when you say DUL, that time you really freaks me out you know, goodness. Well, we are really really surprise when anjoe said you've prepared 2 presents. Actually I didn't hear this sentence until chow repeated to me again and I just looked at them on the stage, I thought I heard wrongly or they're just joking, haha! In fact I'm not dreaming, it really happening, chow and me went up to stage and took the presents in a formal way, the girl guide/ranger style, woohoo~ When I took out the book and just saw the cover I was totally, completely speechless, need a few more seconds to see whether I took a wrong thing anot, hehehe. Ahh~ it was the most precious time, just wish I could slow down that moment and capture it and save it forever in my heart. <3

Today God let me see something again. He showed me that I wasn't that bad as I thought. Don't know what I'm saying? hehe.. Since last year when I started to hold this position as a Deputy Unit Leader(DUL) until now, I don't think I did a lot of things to help the rangers and girl guides, in my mind I only know that most of the things are done by shireen chow, everytime I think of it I felt very guilty and paiseh. Besides, I never think that I'm a good leader, in fact I think that others are much better than me. A lot of times I think that why not I let her to be DUL instead of me, well, I think a lot of things. =) Anyway, today I realised that there are still people who loves me and appreciate what I did, although I don't know what I did for them, but I know they're happy to see me, and of course also through the book I've read, hehe. =D Lastly, He showed me once again how lovely my animal friends are. Though I had a tough time with them a few times, but for me all the things happened had made me to be a stronger person. I don't know about them but I really love them from the bottom of my heart.

Once again I thank You, Once again I pour out my life~

Oh well, that's the end of my guiding life.
Form 1
> Start to join Girl Guide, Orchid 11th. I got the Best Recruit(Yeah!)
> First time join AMC Campfire Gathering, the GRANT one!
Form 2
> Sunflower 27th, Patrol Second(PS), my PL was Chek Mun Yee PL.
Form 3
> Orchid 16th, Patrol Leader(PL), my PS was Pong Wai Yee.
> Organised farewell party for our bloved form 5 seniors. I was happy to be chairlady.
Form 4(end of the year) & 5
> 1st Unit Ranger, Deputy Unit Leader(DUL).
> Organised both Ranger and Girl Guide camp. Advisor with chow.
> Went SMI and MC gathering. Won 1st runner up in marching and Best Dance.

I was once very committed to Girl Guide, then I lost it when form 4, then after that I found back my interest this early year. Thanks to everyone for giving me a happy ending~




These messages had made me burst into tears again, especially MaYi, the last and longest one. Everytime I think about it or I read again I cannot tahan already. =)
Why do you have to do this to me..haha..

P.S Thank you for your patience reading my LONG post!

Amelia Ling

Just a very simple post cause I don't know what to write.

= Very happy and touching farewell yesterday by form 4 rangers. =)
= Still want to play play and play!!
= I want holidays too~
= Haven't touch other subjects except sejarah, modern maths and add maths. (Die~)
= Sejarah still don't want to go into my brain. (Die faster~)
= Feels very very tired this whole week, stomach pain and waist pain because of...guess yourself. =D
= Suddenly love a few person very much. =)
= Wonders what will happen tomorrow?

Amelia Ling

Another performance done again! Yea, today is my school AMC, Miss Tham and Miss Loo's retirement farewell,of course 5S8's 6 talented girls had a performance, and they are call WILDCHIMPZ(funny name right? Well, its just for fun). They did a good job again, everybody, maybe not everyone but most of the students screamed like mad when they came out. It was a success.

Well, for me, it was a great performance, the songs are great, lyrics, everything, but I wonder why I'm not one of the crazy fans or friends who is very excited and screaming like mad about this band, especially for my best old buddy. Today all our friends or people we know came and say its really really really a great performance, like to perfection, some even came for hugging and autographs,they are just a bunch of crazy insane fans, screaming and jumping and screaming till the end of the show, and still screaming, haha, ok maybe too much. Well,I don't feel that way and I'm still wondering...

Its not that I don't like them or whatever. I don't know, maybe she's my best buddy, I know her, although not 100% very well, let's just say I'm not surprise about the thing she's capable of already. Sometimes I think that I'm one of the luckiest person in this world because God had place her in my life, having her as the closest one somemore. Ahh~ now I only felt a little bit of His love. Although she's not a perfect friend, but its more than I've expected cause I only wanted somebody to talk to about anything, somebody that I can really trust without hesitating, so I never know I'll have a so talented friend whose having so many fans out there, hehe. Hm.. remember what I said about being a friend is a pressure, well it still does but not so much now. I used to worry a lot and a lot of things like what is she doing or thinking? am I still her bestest friend or what so ever until one day I cried, while I was talking to wan li during BUG. What a day. I know I know, silly silly me. Well, I still do think about these questions and still doubt about it sometimes, but not so care about it cause I know sometimes I was thinking too far and also we can't control a person's life. If there is really a change between our friendship, I can't stop it. God's controlling it. Whatever happens, happens. Just like some people will say "everything happens for a reason", though sometimes we don't know what the reason is.

I got to learn what God is giving or not giving me. Before that I used to blame many things to God why I don't have this and that, why I'm like other people, I hate my life until a lot of times I wanted to give up on Him cause I don't feel His presence at all, but luckily I didn't do that if not I'll be the worst daughter ever and I think I can't even forget myself that time. Right now I need to start all over again, not rushing anything, slowly see the big picture, feel and understand Him. Of course its NOT EASY to do it, for God sake I'm only 10 months old, haha, what do I know about, don't blame me for don't know anything. Nobody really teach me anything, I don't go for sunday service and sunday school, only self-learning and self-understanding, so basically its extra hard. And one more thing, I'm still not used to the life, the praying, especially the very simple praying. Yupe, don't be surprise, its true, forgive me. =)

Amelia Ling

Yo every human who is reading this post, welcome to my new blog. You must be wondering why I'm changing to a new blog, well, its just because the previous blog not much function and I don't really know all the function, don't really like it. About all the posts in the old blog, just put it aside or forget about it. I think 90% is not a good memory or whatever is it, anyway, that's the old me, new me will be coming or its already coming. You'll see. You might not like it,but that's your problem, not mine. Tata.

Amelia Ling Sue Shyan